My mind is all over the place right now. This post is going to be a mess, but I need an outlet, so this will have to do. I have so many questions... I used to be so independent. When did I stop loving myself? Why did I let myself be treated this way? What else do I have to give for me to be enough? How did I let this happen? Only 4 months in and I am already having doubts. Can I really go on with the way things are right now? It's 4.49am on a Wednesday and I cannot bring myself to bed. I feel so dirty, ashamed, and unworthy. I don't take such matters lightly, so forgiveness is hard. I think the time alone in silence has helped me tame my rampant thoughts. Although it doesn't really help extinguish the anger I feel every time my mind drifts back to the root of the problem. Have I not given up enough for you? Have I not been so easy to please? Have I not given you what you ask for? What more do I have to do for you to look at me and see me for who I am? W
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Good morrow, welcometh quite quaint creatures :P I thought I'd create a new blog for a fresh new start. The last time I typed out a blog post - it went way back in 2015. So many things have changed since then, alhamdulillah. I'm engaged to be married, in sha Allah. My dream of being a pawrent has now come true. I'm a proud pawrent of not 1, but 2 lovely cats - Ollie and Lucky. I have a beautiful baby niece who has a love hate relationship with me :-/ I'm working with best people who were my friends before they became my colleagues. And that's only the tip of the iceberg. I hope with this new blog, I will always be reminded of the blessings God has given me. Also, just a heads up, there might be cussing in future posts!!!! So be warned.